part 13
“Well
dinner’s pretty much a write off with the exception of the salad and
dessert. So we’ll have to come up with a
backup plan. That’s if you happen to still
be hungry. I’m not after all that.” I
scraped the charred remains of what were once a couple of perfectly grilled
steaks, grilled zucchini slices, roasted red peppers and portabella mushrooms
into the trash bin. “Nope,
not really, I’m more concerned about us and making sure we’re okay. How about we pour a couple of glasses of wine
and go sip them out on the back deck and just talk. We can make something later if we get the
munchies or order some take out. How’s
that sound to you?” “That
sounds good to me. No more chores
tonight, other than tossing in the last load of laundry I tossed in the washer
into the drier. It gets that funky odour
to it if you don’t and you have to rewash it.
I go to that and meet you on the deck.
I padded off down to the basement to take care of the laundry.
When
I returned Liam was waiting for me on the deck in the backyard.. Two glasses of red wine rested on a small
table between two chaise lounges. He turned from where he’d been standing, more
than likely admiring the beautiful sunset that was brushing the sky with a
dazzling array of colour. I
noticed he had a black hard covered book in his one hand.as he approached me.
“Are we going to build a bonfire and have a ritual sacrifice of your “little
black book” as I believe you gentlemen refer to them? Making sure I don’t
accidently find it one day and go ballistic because you’d never bothered to get
rid of it? I smiled at him in an attempt to make light of our earlier
misunderstanding over a similar little hard covered book. “No,
it’s nothing like that, but I do want to share this with you. You weren’t the only one keeping a journal
about your feelings. I couldn’t bring myself to say hello to you or even ask
you out for a simple cup of coffee so we could talk, so I did one of the things
I do best, I wrote about it.” He hesitated a moment and took a deep breath
before he continued. “After
what happened earlier I just felt I should share this with you. Correction I want to share it with you. I
know you’ll understand the intensity of what went into the writing of it and
the deeply felt emotions that I try to express.
So I’d very much like you to read it, and hopefully you’ll understand me
just that much more when you finish reading it.” “I
will, just as I want you to read my inner most thoughts and struggles with my
own insecurities, but not tonight. It’ll
be better if we wait until we’re both more grounded after tonight’s upheaval of
emotions.”
“I concur whole
heartedly with that. You’re a pretty
smart cookie Lorelei.” And I felt as if my heart would burst with love for her
in that moment. She’d come into my life
when I had least expected it, and had managed to capture my heart without
having ever said a single word to me.
There was something about her aura that had drawn me to her and now
bound me to her. I set the book down on
the table next to the glasses of wine and held my arms out to her. She came to me with no hesitation and my arms
encircled her waist and drew her near to me.
Her head resting against my chest, I just wanted to hold her
forever. I was still struggling with the
fact that I had allowed my own insecurities to allow me to doubt her. She
deserved far better than that from me and I was going to do my best to ensure
that it never happened again. I kissed the top of her head gently.
Her hands began to
caress the small of my back, gently reassuringly, as if signalling to me in her
own wordless way that this too would pass and we’d be better, stronger and even
closer after what had happened. We stood there for ages
just holding one another. The sun had
set now and the stars were starting dimple the sky like twinkling fairy lights
on a Christmas tree. The chirping of
crickets and the soft twitter of birds provided an enchanting little symphony
to further set the peaceful scenario. A tight squeeze and I
finally broke the silence as I peered down into her upturned face and held her
eyes in my steady gaze. “You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me
Lorelei.” And I leaned down and kissed her with a gentle tenderness that
overwhelmed me. She was able to evoke
emotions in me I’d never experienced to these depths before, it as though she
had bewitched me and I was under her spell.
“Very nice” she
murmured at me “Very nice indeed” and she stretched up on her toes and
reciprocated with a kiss that left me with the knowledge that her love and
devotion to me were going to be constants in my life. “Let’s grab our wine
and make ourselves more comfortable over there on the love seat. We can watch the stars together and talk some
more I suggested to her. I picked up the
glasses and moved over and sat down. She immediately curled up beside me her
feet tucked up under her and accepted the glass of wine proffered to her. She
cuddled into me resting her head on my shoulder. I transferred my glass to my other hand and
wrapped my arm around her pulling her closer. “Talk that’s all?” she
inquired coyly and batted those big beautiful blue eyes of hers at me, as she
stretched up ever so slightly and nuzzled my neck playfully. I loved the way she could appear to be both
so innocent and such a seductress all in the same instant.
“Well
you might be able to entice me” he said seemingly mulling it over looking for
all the world as innocent as a lamb, but his eyes told a completely different
tale as I saw the devilish glint in them. I
took a small sip of my wine. “Well I’d
hate to lead you astray or corrupt you.” I said looking at him over the rim of
my glass. We clinked our glasses together in a wordless toast to each other and
each took a sip solemnly then burst into a fit of giggles together. “So
tell me something, do you think tomorrow will go well? I have to admit I’m kind of nervous about it. Especially if your family find out we spent
the weekend together this soon into the relationship.” I blurted out after our
fit of giggles had subsided. “Listen
to me” he began in a soothing tone “I know this might seem sudden and rather
impetuous to a lot of people, and I’d probably have concerns if this were
someone close to me getting so serious so soon.
This is about us though, and we aren’t starry eyed teenagers. We’ve both experienced life, and we know who
we are and what we want out of life. You
and I both know in our hearts that this relationship is meant to be.
We’ve got this bond and nothing or no one
will ever break it. Sure we’ll have a
few glitches and we’ve had a couple already, but we deal with it, and come out
of them stronger am more committed to making this work. You and I aren’t part of this disposable
society we live in Lorelei. We believe
in putting the time and effort into the things we want, and we want each other,
simple as that.” He brushed his lips against my brow and gave me a little
squeeze of reassurance. “Besides if they
do give us any flack I’m fully prepared to tell the whole lot of them they can
“Póg mo thóin” he added with stout resolution to his voice. “LIAM!!
I’m shocked! That’s very naughty of
you!!” I scolded him. “Don’t you dare,
even think about saying that to your family if they offer any resistance to us
being together.” He
gave me an extremely quizzical look in return.
“You’re up on your on your Gaeilge phrases? That’s going to score you brownie points with
my folks straight off the bat. They are
both very old school in a great many ways.
They’ll be thrilled to know you know at least a bit of the mother
tongue.” “Liam
darling, I sincerely doubt that your parents would be thrilled to having you
essentially telling them to “kiss your arse” if they aren’t tickled pink about
the fact that I’m now in your life and here to stay.” I added to him softly.
“No,
I suppose you’re right on that account, and you know I’m not the sort that’s
disrespectful towards my elders, but they will have to accept that this is my
life, and I’m going to lead it. I think
we are jumping the gun here though and imagining the worst case scenario. Amazing how we humans often go there first in
our thoughts then get all worked up and waste a great deal of time and energy being
paranoid over something we don’t have any control over in the first place. Honestly though I think my family will adore
you. Molly and the kids are already fans
of yours. Just be you and we’ll have a
great time tomorrow.” I
knew he was right and whatever was going to happen would happen, so there was
no use of me getting stressed and fretting over it. “I know your right.” And I
took another sip of wine in an effort to fortify my nerves regardless of the
fact that logically I knew he was right about all of this. I
giggled. ”I think I’d better lay off the
wine or I’m going to get a bit tipsy on my empty stomach.” “Afraid
I’d take advantage of you if you did get tipsy?” Liam asked me.
“Nope,
not at all I know you’d want me to be very present and acutely aware of
everything that was happening and all the sensations.” I answered him quite
truthfully. “You’re
right about that. I am curious though if
you have some idea of what our first time making love would be like. I mean do
you have it all thought out what your ultimate experience would be. You know like a trail of rose petals to the
bedroom, having me carry you in my arms and gently laying you on the bed while
we slowly undress each other and make love slowly and sweetly. Or do you think
it will be some explosive impulsive act of passion with frenzied frantic
needs?” he inquires as he looked me in the eyes, as though trying to decipher
what my answer would be. “Liam”
I said meeting his gaze and holding it “I believe that some things in your life
you can‘t plan for you just have to let them naturally unfold, and they’ll
happen exactly when, where and how they are supposed to. Yes I have thought about the moment we first
make love to each other and I’ve even dreamed about it, but it’s never been the
same way twice. Each time was mystical,
magical and perfect in its own unique way.
The thing that made them all perfect to me though is the fact that I
shared it with you. You are the only thing I need.” I said softly to him.
His
eyes were filled with such love for me in that moment, and a sense of relieve
seemed to sweep over him as well that I was not holding him up to some romantic
ideal that would be impossible for him to achieve. “Things
always work out so beautifully in novels, poetry and films about making love
but reality is while making love is perfectly natural but that doesn’t make it
naturally perfect. I don’t care because
as long as it’s the two of us, it’s going to be a memory for us to treasure,
and to me that’s as perfect as it can possibly get.” “Perfect”
he mumbled as took me in his arms and oh so gently and softly drew his lips to
mine. The kiss was just that perfect, to
me everything about him was perfect, even the way he pushed my buttons on
occasion and ruffled my feathers there was still no one else that I wanted, the
way I wanted Liam. “It’s
beautiful out here this evening, think we might get to wish on a shooting star
together?” I asked in a awe filled voice as I gazed at the starlit sky above us
and felt the tenderness of Liam’s embrace.
“No
need to. I have everything I’ve ever
wanted in life right here by my side.” He said as he gave me one of those
dreamy smiles of his that warmed the cockles of my heart. How I loved this man by my side and now that
he was in my life I couldn’t imagine my life without him. I knew he was the one it was as though I had
known it since the moment I had first laid eyes on him.
I
nuzzled his chest “It’s getting late, think we should consider calling it a day
and turn in for the night.” I asked him softly. “Suppose
so” he whispered back a note of regret hanging in the air as he did.
Despite the fact she’d
be in my arms as we settled in for the night, I still regretted the moment we
were in ending. After the earlier
upheaval of misunderstanding and the myriad of emotions we’d been through I
revelled in the moment of peace and calm we now shared. “I’m just going to grab
a quick shower first, just want to clean up.” I said. “Sure go ahead” she responded. “I’ll just pop downstairs and grab the
laundry to fold while you do, one less thing to do in the morning.” She added
sounding practical in a way that only women seemed capable of doing. “Okay coach, I’m off to
hit the showers.” I said giving her a quick kiss on the cheek. I picked up the glasses to put rinse out and
put in the dishwasher on my way. She in
turn picked up the journal and followed in to the kitchen.
I padded off to the
bathroom, flipped on the light switch, and turned on the shower, adjusting the
temperature, before stripping down and stepping in. The hot water felt
soothing, as it cascaded down over me. I
grabbed a wash cloth, wetted it and added a couple of squirts of body wash to
it. I smiled as I placed it back on the small shelf, next to some of Lorelei`s things.
To me it was as though a natural order of things had finally been balanced in
my life. I lathered up lost in my thoughts, feeling the soapy cloth sliding
over my chest, neck, arms, and legs.
Liam
was still in the shower when I finished folding the laundry and brought it
neatly folded in the laundry basket into the bedroom. I could hear the spray of the water as it
fell against the tiles of the shower. I
busied myself pulling open drawers, as I deciphered where his various articles
of clothing belonged, desperately trying not to think of the stunning good
looking man in the other room, who was currently naked, which the mere thought
of caused me to panic. Finally the only
thing I was left with was pile of clean towels which obviously belonged in the
same room that Liam now occupied. The
big dilemma was did I enter now or wait until he was finished to put them away. I
felt as though I were in a movie with the an angel and a devil each perched on
an opposing shoulder, volleying comments back and forth as to what I should do
now. “Go on you know you want to look, catch a glimpse of
your nude Adonis. He’ll never know.
What’s the harm of it?” I gulped and flushed, it would be so easy to
give in as I yearned to see even the silhouette of his naked form in all its
glory. To watch the way he bathed
himself. To learn the way to he touched
himself so that when the time came I wouldn’t appear clumsy or awkward to him.
I wanted to please him to be able to give him pleasure as naturally as if I
were an extension of his very being.
The
saintly little soul on the other shoulder was equally vocal in my head. “Is this really the way you want your first
intimate encounter to begin? Don’t you
want to experience the thrill as you grace each other with the ultimate gift that
of giving yourself to each other? I
was completely torn by my conflicting emotions and desires, part of me just
wanted the rush of being with him, the raw unbridled passion, and the
opportunity to unleash it. The other side of me wanted to hang in there to have
the slow subtle seduction, the titillation that came from it, allowing it to
build to a thundering crescendo as we took our pleasure in each other. To be
bathed in the glory and ecstasy of finally coupling with him a time that would
be so meaning and spiritual to our hearts and souls. Still
embroiled in my debate with myself I didn’t hear Liam turn off the shower or
the soft tread of his step as he entered the bedroom emerging from a cloud of
steam. He took my breath away. Clad only in a large white towel wrapped
around his waist, his hair still damp.
So strong, so virile, so enticing, he was beyond handsome, and yes my
heart rate quickened.
I was a bit flustered
to see Lorelei standing their looking endearingly comical in her distress over
my unexpected arrival and state of attire.
I had to admit I felt rather awkward in this situation myself. Thank god I hadn’t pranced out here naked as
a jay bird, as I often would have had I been alone. “I’ll go grab my bathrobe,
be back in a jiff.” And on that note I slipped back into the bathroom, removed
my robe from the hook on the back of the door, slipped it on shook off the
towel and made sure that I was firmly
belted at the waist and that nothing that might be deemed unseemly was making a
special guest appearance as it were. I came back out into
the bedroom and she quickly slipped past me with the towels still grasped
firmly in her arms mumbling about just putting them away quickly. I think we both needed a moment to regroup. Mentally I began to
lecture myself “Steady old boy, things like this are going to happen. You are going to have thoughts about making
love to her like you did while you were in the shower, and if you are going to
cohabitate even occasionally like this situation like this are bound to happen. I want her, I can’t deny it I want to explore
and worship every inch of her, I want to pleasure her, make love to her entwine
her soul with mine.”
I
found the storage space for the towels and stowed them away. I needed to catch
my breath I was on the verge of hyper ventilating and my heart was racing. To
me Liam was the most handsome man that had ever lived. It was everything about him but especially
those eyes of his. They were so
expressive, the way they could bore into your consciousness and know your
deepest thoughts. Eyes that were kind
and I knew he had the love in his heart to back them up. Not to mention the
passion they could convey with a single heart stopping glance. I wasn’t exactly immune to the charms his
athletic build nor to the strength of those arms when they held me tight and
cradled me against his chest. I wanted
to have those long legs of his entwined with mine. To feel his body next to
mine, to know the sensation of him entering me slowly and deliberately as he held
my eyes in his steadfast gaze. I wanted
to experience the sweetest joy I would ever know being one with him, uniting
with him, giving myself to him completely. To…. my thoughts were broken.
“Lorelei you okay? I didn’t mean to startle you earlier dressed like
that. Guess I’m just used to it just
being me here is all. I’ll try to be
more sensitive and careful in the future, at least until after we’ve reached a
stage where we are both comfortable with such a level of informality and
intimacy.” “Tis okay” she answered
softly. I walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her and drew her near.
She automatically nestled her head into my chest and clasped her arms around me
in response. I could feel her heart beating
wildly in her chest, and felt the small trembles in her body. I looked down
into her eyes and I knew in that moment what she wanted. “Are you sure?” I asked
her softly stroking her hair back from her face. She bit her quivering bottom
lip and gave a barely perceptible nod of her head. “Answer me my love.” With an
underlying urgency in my voice I pleaded with her to answer me even though I
knew the answer in my heart which was singing a joyous song. “Yes, yes a thousand
times yes Liam. I’ve waited a life time to find you.” She replied her eyes
shining brightly, with such love and tenderness for me that it took my breath
away and time for me stood still.
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